I've told myself many lies over the years:
"It doesn't matter"
"It doesn't hurt"
But you know what? I was not ok, it did matter, and I did hurt. Over the years those lies became so easy to believe and they hurt me more than I ever imagined.
I "found" grief recovery through a friend in October of 2019. The first and most profound thing I learned was I didn't even know I was grieving. Through the program I was given a different set of tools to help me cope with life's curveballs; I didn't realize I would be using my new tools so soon after completing the program.
In January 2020, I left my government position of almost 16 years due to downsizing, soon after the pandemic hit, and in December my grandfather (Tata) died. In January 2021, my Mom died and I soon began a long probate process. In June, my father-in-law died, and in December we moved to Tennessee.
As you can see, there were many changes and challenges through 2020 and 2021, but I was able to approach it all differently because of what I learned. Of course I still hurt, I was still mad, upset, angry, and feeling all kinds of emotions, but I finally knew what I had been dealing with, what I would be dealing with, and what those around me were dealing with: grief.
Thankfully I've had a small breather in 2022 to really take everything in, but I know there's only more to come. Not to be pessimistic, but life happens…and I know I'm equipped, knowledgeable, and supported--and I have a passion for helping others have the same.
Love is my motivation to do what's right and to do what's hard. That's why I help people through grief and loss. Resilience isn't something that's innate, it's a learned skill that is practiced over and over again.
I support people in person (online soon) 1-on-1, Group Support, Helping Children with Loss, and Pet Loss.